Hello?  Moira told me a woman from the Vault came through, and I know this letter is a shot in the dark, but I hope you get this.  I had to leave, and in the first day out here my eyes have been dried and burned, and I’m not sure what I’m doing.  The freedom seemed enchanting, nevermind the destruction I faced when I stepped outside of the steel coffin I’d known as home for years.  Now, I’m just not sure.

I found this shit-hole called Megaton and met a man named Burke who tried to have the entire town wiped clean, and I ratted the sick fuck out.  Not because I care anything about these poor bastards, but because I just don’t care enough to put them under my boot.  Those folks at the Children of the Atom and … Simms’ kid losing his father, I just don’t get it.  It feels like a journey just having gotten this far.  Like.. I’ve got some vicarious controller pushing me forward to find my dad.  I got a house here and things feel strangely stable, Moira’s got me doing these odd tasks for her where I’ve broken more bones in the past few days than I have.  One thing she failed to ask me about her survival guide is the moral grey that’s contrasted by the bloom here in the Wastes.  If you’re reading this, I hope you know what I mean.

I killed someone.  It was some woman living in a house who said she escaped from Moriarty.  I told her I didn’t know the guy, but I lied.  I tried acting like I knew my way around the Wastes and he caught me in my lie, said that he needed 300 more caps for my father.  I had no money, nothing to sell but the clothes on my back… so I shot her.  Her head detached from her body as it fell lifeless to the ground, and I didn’t wait a second before looting everything I could from her place.  I felt bad, but… she was just some whore.  Some whore who spent her time running from her pimp and living off Psycho and Med-X, the world won’t miss her and what I’m doing is important.  Then, I get here to Megaton and I save everything.  I don’t understand it.  Please, please tell me you’re reading this?

-Deniz